Tuesdays and Thursdays there is not a need for me to get up early since I don't work. And since I don't have too, I don't while being 6 months pregnant. I can sleep in until 7am and still have plenty of time to take my little one to school. Today I woke up at 5am and could not go back to sleep. I am a woman that has to have her sleep or I am not so fun to be around. By the time 7am came around I was tired and not ready for the day.
It's 7am,got up, got ready, and off to school we went. My 7 years old daughter had a complete meltdown about how much she wanted to stay with mommy today. Our school has a circular drop off line where we drive up, drop our child and off we go. Well needless to say, due to the meltdown I was sitting in line for 5 extra minutes trying console my crying daughter. My heart broke and the line was getting longer and longer behind me. Thoughts of parents getting angry and impatient with me because my 1st grade daughter couldn't handle going to school today were running through my brain. The thought of breaking my daughters heart by just leaving (which I know I didn't but all my momma heart could think of was that) tore me apart. I got frantic and felt a overwhelmed. I pulled away feeling like a bad mom.
Our car has been acting up lately so I decided to take it in today to get it checked. I needed to go to the Dollar Tree first and then off to the dealership. Made it to the Dollar Tree and my son and I went in, got what we needed and went to leave. Turned the key to my ignitions and nothing. Tried it again and nothing. My car had died. AHH! Couldn't it just go a little further to the dealership. . .no, of course not. It's only about 9:15am and by this point I knew today was just not going to be one of those good days. Sat in the parking lot for 45 minutes while my father-in-law came to the rescue. I am so glad he was around to help. I was very thankful. Finally I made it to the dealership and things are ok.
It is better to be patient than powerful; it is better to have self-control than to conquer a city. Proverbs 16:32
Be glad for all God is planning for you. Be patient in trouble, and always be prayerful.
Romans 12:12
I seem to find myself losing my mind most days just trying to keep up with the pressures of being a so called "super woman". Why do we women feel we have to do everything to be enough? Will our children really not love of us if we forget to do something? Will my husband choose not tell me he loves me if I don't run around like a chicken with my head cut off all day? Where is this craziness from? There is so much pressure put on a woman to be everything. Lately, I have found hope and peace in these verses. In the middle of my imperfect morning, I found myself only being able to have control over one thing. The choice to pray or sit and stew. I realized I needed to chose prayer. Be patient in trouble, and always be prayerful. Patience is such a beautiful quality but I think it is one of the most difficult qualities to achieve.
Being the mother and wife of my family is enough. God knows I am enough and he already knows my failures. Handling our crazy life in a healthy way will be the example my children need. This morning I did not feel like a good mom and the little troubles of this life got to me. My peace was found in the little prayer I made to the Lord. He help me realize these little things are so small compared to the many blessings I have. Always be prayerful! It makes a difference.
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