I Need You!

Happy summer to all!  Although the weather this past week has not been summer weather in my eyes.  As most of you know, I am 9 months pregnant and getting ready to pop!  I have to be completely honest my feelings right now because I truly need some prayers and support to get through the last couple of weeks.  For some reason in this pregnancy, many frustrations have been present in my heart.  I've done this two times already and why is it this time I am struggling.  I didn't want to gain lots of weight, didnt want to get many more stretch marks, feel useless now since I am suppose to be doing nothing but relaxing, and scared to know that I will be in labor again in the next few weeks.  The biggest one of all is that I cannot play with my children the way I used too and am very jealous of my husband who can.  What is going on?  Maybe it's because I haven't been pregnant for 5 1/2 years now and forgot everything that goes with it.  Maybe it's stress or busy life.  I don't know.  Pregnancy is one of the greatest gifts from God and I am being selfish.  I think I will blame it on hormones, lol!  No seriously though, I wish I could embrace this blessing and understand that it will be over soon.  That precious little baby girl who has been growing inside me, is the gift and God's amazing love to this family.  Please pray for peace in my heart, to have patience, take the advice I need and be grateful for this time. I truly can't wait to meet her.